I am a social psychologist who has had a long and often tumultuous relationship with food and exercise. I used to teach a spinning class indoor cycling, but I abandoned that a few years ago after developing chronically tight hamstrings. Since then I have move through different exercise routines like most people change underwear. However, for the last four to six months, I have been slavishly addicted to my 2.2 lb weighted hula hoop for dance and fitness and yoga.

When I was 16, I weighed in a 232.5, which used to be well outside the norm for teenagers, but sadly, today, is not all that far off average. In less than one year, I weighed 142.5. A lot changes between 16 and 17, especially when you go from a size 42 (women’s) to a size 8 (misses). Because of the rapidity of those changes, not to mention a certain lack of self-reflection at the tender age of 16, I struggles with my weight for decades. Admittedly, sometimes the struggle died down to a low hum, though other times it was a full fledged battle. I maintained that weight (give or take 15lbs) for over 20 years. However, during my 36th year, I decided that I was ready to take it to the next level, though it wasn’t clear at the time what that would be, mean, or even look like.

It’s probably worth noting, that I have no idea what I weigh now, but I am happy with my body for the first time in my life. I no longer hear the roar of self-criticism or self-restriction. If I really want something – the emphasis on really – I eat it. If I feel like exercising I do. It’s much simpler than it used to be.

In July 2009, I realized that I had an allergy to wheat, prompting me to go gluten-free. On December 21, 2009, I decided to take it to the next level too, by adopting more raw food into my diet. I was more or less 100% raw and felt really good about myself and by body, at least initially.

In August 2010, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis (which means the autoimmune system is attacking the thyroid – a very common occurrence among people with Celiac or gluten sensitivity). With the help of a veritable team of holistic health coaches, I decided that raw was not for me and have gone back to a more balanced approach to eating. I still incorporate a high percentage of raw food in my diet, but have acknowledged, somewhat grudgingly, that my body simply functions better on a more omnivorous diet.

Somewhere around August 2011, I accidentally fell in love with my body and all of a sudden weight loss seems terribly uninteresting, go figure. Incidentally, the moment that happened, my weight stabilized, easily and almost effortlessly.

This blog, which was originally about my desire to lose weight has morphed into a story of my journey. I hope that you find it interesting, informative, and enlightening.

2 comments so far

  1. Carol on

    Tulsa now has a raw food restaurant too, PURE RAW FOOD CAFE. In the spring of 2010 BLISS will open it’s third raw food restaurant in Tulsa.

    • KJ on

      I am so, so jealous! Maybe this means I’ll go visit my parents more often!

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